All We are is Dust in the Wind

When we looked at the forecast this morning, we must not have looked very closely at the "Real Feel" temperature, because we had it in mind that it would be warm enough to go biking today. It was only 41 degrees when we finally got in the car with the bikes loaded, and it was at that time that I started to question whether or not it was a good idea. Yet, I still had the hope that perhaps the sun would come through for us on the way up to Noblesville. There are some great, traffic-less roads up there that were perfect for biking. Perfect, that is, if there aren't any winds. 30 mph winds. And if it's not 41 degrees outside. My kneecaps were trembling as I put on my helmet, but I thought, "What the hell - I guess my body will warm up as I get my legs moving." WRONG. WRONG, WRONG, WRONG. This was flat, featureless land and the wind cut right through me. We went 6 miles (at the most!) and I got cold boogers all over my lip.

On the bright side, I feel really good about dismounting with my shoe clips now.

Easter 2008

Happy Belated Easter!

Dave is playing laser tag by himself right now. If you're wondering how that is accomplished, he is holding a gun in each hand and shooting at each one. Fun times, my darling.

I mapped out my route for commuting to work by bicycle. I'm a little worried about the last mile downtown. I'll have to ride on the street with traffic. Another negative -- it's $3/day to park my bike in my parking garage!! What a rip. My company won't let me take my bike up to my office; otherwise, I would do that. Actually, I'm lying. I AM allowed to take my bike up to my office, but I can't take it through the front door. This means that I have to go through the alley behind the building (which is full of glass and trash. mmm... glass and trash), press a 'call' button, and wait for an angry janitor to open up the freight elevator for me. Maybe I'm just being lazy about it. I think I'd rather pay the three dollars and avoid having our custodial and security staff mad at me for bothering me.

Get. OUT!

I still can't believe it, but somehow I won the "People's Choice" chili award on Saturday night. I really only won because one person loved my chili so much that they voted with a twenty dollar bill. 1 penny = 1 vote. Anyways, I was definitely excited to have won something. I may have even pumped my fist in the air when they called my name.


Somehow, the minutes ticked by and we ended up spending almost five hours at the chili cook-off/auction. It was really great being able to spend time with our church family and donate to such a worthy cause. At last count, the Cook-Off ended up raising about $8,000 for the youth group. Awesome.

After the Cook-Off, we headed to Rachael and Chuy's place to hang out with some other friends and talk, and that was wayyyy too much fun. Hahaha. I think we got home at 3 AM. It was worth it, though. There were more than a few laughing-so-hard-we-were-crying moments.

Miraculously, we were able to wake up early on Sunday.

Dave went out on his first bike ride of the season with Justin (he owns Indiebike.com) and a few others. After he got home, I was itching to go riding myself, so he ate about 3,000 calories worth of food and then was nice enough to go out again with me. The Monon Trail was SO crowded because of the unusually nice weather. We got off the trail as soon as possible and onto some side streets. We only went 9 miles, but I was happy to be outside at all. I took my hybrid, but I vow to take my road bike the next time. I only hope that we go riding at 3 AM or a place at which people can't see me panicking after not being able to clip-out my shoes and then falling over, embarrassing myself, and scratching my arms and legs. Is that too much to ask for?

Excitement

For some reason, I feel so excited today. Things have been going really well for David and I lately, and I can't shake these feelings of... joy? Not that I want to. It's just that I am a person that is plagued by anxiety and "what-if" thoughts, so I can't help but be skeptical when I feel carefree or exceptionally happy.

I can't wait to ride my bike, I can't wait to get more involved at church, I can't wait for this chili cook-off on Sunday, I can't wait to clean the house this weekend, I can't wait for Spring!

I keep wondering if I should stop seeing my therapist, but it's kind of like breaking up with someone.

Maybe I can convince Dave to ride bikes with me tonight. (Does that make me sound like I'm 8 years old? Perhaps I should say, 'Maybe I can convince David to go cycling with me tonight.')