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10 Signs Your Stress and Anxiety are Getting Out of Control:

1. Headaches, headaches, headaches
2. Change in appetite (I can't stop eating or I won't eat anything; usually, it's the former, but not long ago I lost 15 lbs. because I was too bloated and nauseous to eat for a couple of months)
3. Random crying
4. You know that feeling you get in your stomach right as you get up to make a speech? That feeling, for 24 hours a day. It's unbearable.
5. Twitching
6. Heartburn
7. Insomnia, arguably the worst of the list.
8. Skipped heartbeats (palpitations)
9. Bitten nails and picked fingers
10. Constantly taking deep breaths...

Another dip in the rollercoaster of life, I guess.

Stressed Out

Ugh; I have to give a huge presentation later today and I feel ill.

One hour of ugh, coming right up!

Why did I have to invite the mean guy?

Excitement

For some reason, I feel so excited today. Things have been going really well for David and I lately, and I can't shake these feelings of... joy? Not that I want to. It's just that I am a person that is plagued by anxiety and "what-if" thoughts, so I can't help but be skeptical when I feel carefree or exceptionally happy.

I can't wait to ride my bike, I can't wait to get more involved at church, I can't wait for this chili cook-off on Sunday, I can't wait to clean the house this weekend, I can't wait for Spring!

I keep wondering if I should stop seeing my therapist, but it's kind of like breaking up with someone.

Maybe I can convince Dave to ride bikes with me tonight. (Does that make me sound like I'm 8 years old? Perhaps I should say, 'Maybe I can convince David to go cycling with me tonight.')