RE: Stressed Out

After meetings like that one, I can't help but wonder if I am not cut out for the business world. I get so completely nervous, and when someone asks me a question that I can't answer, I just stare at them until my brain spits out some words in the wrong order. Case in point: (this happened today, and please excuse the acronyms)

Person: "So, the question is, what is the benefit of holding onto ARRs versus directly converting them into FTRs?"

Katherine: "........"

Katherine: ".... Um, I was really just.... afraid of... um... well.... values... negative"

WOW. AWESOME.

I think I just need practice. Practice and confidence. Unfortunately, after my performance this afternoon, my confidence seems to have headed in the wrong direction. And this is the fifth meeting that I have run by myself.

Thoughts on Money

Is capitalism against Jesus' teachings? Is it wrong to save money for the future?

Is it sinful to strive to be the best?

It seems like without capitalism, motivation to improve and invent products would not exist.

Would we have the medicines we have today without the drive for pharmaceutical companies to make big bucks? I don't think so. I'd like to think that doctors and scientists would still want to save lives, but maybe it's not enough.

Speaking of Numbness

My left leg has been numb for the last couple of days, and it's really bothering me. The numbness is spread from halfway down my back all the way down to my toes. It feels like it was dipped in Novocaine.

This has happened to me before. About a year ago, and I went to the doctor but he said it was probably a weird random thing. I was worried about MS, and I wanted to have an MRI (because I'm a hypochondriac), but he watched me walk around, and then declared that it wasn't necessary. Since then, I get littler patches on numbness intermittently around my legs, but it's not a big deal.

I do have to admit that it made for a very easy leg shaving session in the shower. I didn't feel a thing! Seriously, though. It's disconcerting. What gives, leg!?!?!?

On Simple Living, or Something Like It

There are so many things about religion and politics that I don't understand, and feel like I can't even begin to understand.

I've never read the Bible in its entirety, so I am unable to argue about many religious topics with "quotes" or somesuch to back me up.

The basis of my 'religion' comes from what I feel is right in my heart. I don't know how to explain it in any other way.

Does God want us to live simply? I guess so. Why? Should I feel guilty about owning a large house? Why? I do feel guilty for having so much while others have so little. Where is the line crossed? Should I feel guilty for enjoying a hobby, or should I spend all of my time helping others? Why are there so many misguided people? Why is it so hard to find out what God wants us to do in our lives?